Post by Zolexa on Mar 5, 2013 1:24:50 GMT -7
Madame Zeldana,
I have been thinking over some of your words since you performed the reading for me in Thistletop. I do not know if what I have to say will be of any comfort to you. But I feel I should mention it.
You mentioned not seeing your own death in the cards. You felt the cards and your readings failed you because of this.
Something I did not mention at the time, but now wish to share with you is this. My mother did see just that. Not specifics, but she did see her own end. I wish I still had the letter she had written me after that night. Her words would better benefit you than mine ever could. I am not one for words. In my angry youth, I destroyed the letter. But I can still recall some of it.
While she was grateful in part to know, she was able to make permanent arrangements for my future, as I was only a child of 12 at the time. She truly wished not to have known. She spend many morning wondering if 'today would be the day'. She said it would have been better not to. She was living more cautiously, trying to delay or avoid her own end. She was not ready to go, but rather than enjoy each remaining day to its fullest, she spend much of them in worry. Worry for her family, for me, for the caravan. She said she felt as if her light was not shining as brightly on those days.
I was angry at her for not sharing this sooner. I only received her letter after it had happened. But as I grew older I realized she was right in keeping it secret.
She used to say you may not always like what the cards tell you. You may wish for more information than they are willing to share. Your destiny will only be revealed when the fates feel you will be ready for it. And then when it is revealed, if you choose to ignore their warnings or direction, you can not blame the cards. It is your choice for how you react to them.
Perhaps the cards and the fates knew not to worry you. Or they were aware you would ultimately survive. I can not say. But nevertheless, you are here now. Still able to dance. Still able to fight for your beliefs, even when everyone around you may disagree.
We all have our own journey to our destinies. Perhaps something in yours requires you to have had this experience and you will be stronger for it. I wish you safe journey and enlightenment on your destined path.
Xenvia Banciu
I have been thinking over some of your words since you performed the reading for me in Thistletop. I do not know if what I have to say will be of any comfort to you. But I feel I should mention it.
You mentioned not seeing your own death in the cards. You felt the cards and your readings failed you because of this.
Something I did not mention at the time, but now wish to share with you is this. My mother did see just that. Not specifics, but she did see her own end. I wish I still had the letter she had written me after that night. Her words would better benefit you than mine ever could. I am not one for words. In my angry youth, I destroyed the letter. But I can still recall some of it.
While she was grateful in part to know, she was able to make permanent arrangements for my future, as I was only a child of 12 at the time. She truly wished not to have known. She spend many morning wondering if 'today would be the day'. She said it would have been better not to. She was living more cautiously, trying to delay or avoid her own end. She was not ready to go, but rather than enjoy each remaining day to its fullest, she spend much of them in worry. Worry for her family, for me, for the caravan. She said she felt as if her light was not shining as brightly on those days.
I was angry at her for not sharing this sooner. I only received her letter after it had happened. But as I grew older I realized she was right in keeping it secret.
She used to say you may not always like what the cards tell you. You may wish for more information than they are willing to share. Your destiny will only be revealed when the fates feel you will be ready for it. And then when it is revealed, if you choose to ignore their warnings or direction, you can not blame the cards. It is your choice for how you react to them.
Perhaps the cards and the fates knew not to worry you. Or they were aware you would ultimately survive. I can not say. But nevertheless, you are here now. Still able to dance. Still able to fight for your beliefs, even when everyone around you may disagree.
We all have our own journey to our destinies. Perhaps something in yours requires you to have had this experience and you will be stronger for it. I wish you safe journey and enlightenment on your destined path.
Xenvia Banciu